i am sorry as well~

first of all, i wanna apologise to you in front of all the viewers in the blog that i haven been blogging when i said i would. i am sorry for the past 1 month we've been through so much tides together so much arguements that we're just tired to even bicker with each other already sighs i miss the good old days where we didnt have so much arguements sighs .. but baby the thought of many things we've been through together i havent once told myself that i would let go off you & even if things keep going downwards i would also try to make things better just too see you smile. baby i will always give in too u its a habit already for me :x i know baby sometimes will think that shes too much but baby i got used too it thats why so dont feel bad!! :x anyways i am sorry that i made u feel that i wanna play my game more than i wanna accompany you. but thats not the case. baby whenever your not with me i have to do something to keep me occupied because i am not with you & its not that i dont wish to meet u. baby u know that if can i dont mind moving in with you but the problem is i have school and whenever i go over i wont wanna go home :( sighs overall baby just hang on for a few more months afterwards i have no more school i will have more time with u already. baby things will be better alright? i promise u that & no matter what i wont let go of you. i promised. i love you & i really miss you alot

baby i dont wish too not care :( i rather we be like last time u keep bugging me n keep stalking me instead of now .. sighs i really missed those days that u just bug me n ask me not to play just too accompany you those times where u just drag me & i have to run with u just to take the lift. those silly memories of u being so god damn cute n silly >< can we be just like last time sitting in pasir ris park talking our hearts out :@ but seriously speaking here .. if i knew that your going to get hurt so often being with me i would rather just be like last time not owning you at all.. just being a good close friend that u could count on anytime and could lay her head on if she's sad or unhappy unlike now that u have too hide things from me and would not dare to tell me your feelings.. sighs baby you were never nonsensical to me i am not saying this just cause your my girl. no, i mean it your never nonsensical is just that i was too blind too see that u really care that much that u would be paranoid over little things just because u dont wanna lose me neither do i want to lose u too :( your my everything & please dont doubt the placing you hold in my heart, its just that i dont know how to show it already sighs. baby i get it now. i am sorry for being so slow >.< can u forgive me? anyway.. All i wanna say was, i'm really sorry about today boy. :( I'm sorry for starting & being so ridiculous out of a sudden just because you couldn't meet me. I'm sorry for missing you so badly. I'm sorry for making you so pissed & unwilling to come over to see me today. I'm sorry for myself that i fell in love with you this deep. I'm sorry for making you lose your confidence level. I'm sorry that i'm such a useless girlf. I'm sorry that i take every joke seriously. I'm sorry that i couldn't take the risk & let you go. & i'm sorry to let you think that by letting me go i would live better. I'm.. Sorry. you dont have too say sorry for everything it takes two hands to clap. those things u stated on top i have a role too play as well if you think your in the wrong i am also in the wrong. your my baby we share everything together good or bad. i told u b4 even if the world comes crushing down on you i would shelter u all the way. last time is like that, now also like that, for the future also the same this will never change alright? last but not least, your not useless you never will be.. to me your nothing because nothing is perfect :D so baby your nothing & awesome & annoying & silly & paranoid & loving girlfriend that i will ever find!!! & i love you till i grow old n fall into the coffin while pushing u out of it :D <3 ~~although i miss the old us~~
i am sure we will have a better tomorrow together as long as we have each other <3